Monday, November 9, 2009 '
empty house~
My house is going to be really empty in just another 5 more days. My whole family except me and my bro will be going to hong kong this coming sat. My dad just won a lucky draw with a free airticket to hong kong. That's why he's bringing my mum, the 3 little ones and my sis to go there again. Since me and my bro just went not long ago, we will be staying here in singapore.
The feeling of loneliness is inside me, coz I know my house will be really quiet during this weekend up till nxt tues. My grandma will be coming to take care o me and my bro. And the whole house will not be as noisy and lively as now. I know I've grown up, but then never in my life have I experienced my house being so quiet. If my uncle doesn't stay with us, and ifmy grandma doesn't come and take care of us, I'll every every moment for that 4 days. Coz my house is really empty.
Oh well~ I just hope they'll have a safe journey to hong kong and come back safely too. I'll miss them pretty alot I guess. And as for sure, if i send them off, u can see my crying and crying non stop even if I reach home. Coz I can't bear to be separated from my parents and my twinees, and of coz bao yi and pei kuan. Awww~ I'm so gonna miss them. ='( While they are busy packing, I'm feeling a little sorrow.
~Nothing could describe my feelings now. A sense of little fear and the feelings of loneliness deep inside me~
9:12 PM
Tuesday, November 3, 2009 '
sudden mixed feelings
Experienced a sudden feeling of sorrow... Don't know what's got into me, perhaps coz of the little dispute with my mum. And she ignored me from 8 plus till now, perhaps I should let it be like that. My dad and my mum maybe going to HK soon. Coz my dad won an air ticket to HK and he's planning to bring my mum and my 4 sis go. SInce I had go there before which was not long ago, I'm not included in the trip.
Oh well~ If they really go, left me and my bro at home. My mum is planning to ask my grandma come to my house to watch over the 2 of us. Coz she scared my bro wouldn't want to come home for that 3 nights. But if 6 of them really go, I bet I'm going to cry for that 4 days 3 nights. See how it goes~
Tml going for an interview for assistance teacher. Hope everything's fine for me, and I want that job too. Wish me good luck ya? ^^
10:22 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009 '
jia you~
Tml shall be the day, or in fact it's today, 14 more hours to go. I know it's really tough for him to study for his retake, but then I believe he can do it ya? U have my support my dear, and I'll cheer for u. Just believe that u can do it ya? It doesn't really matter how much u know, what matter is that u have work hard for it, and study hard for it too. Tml just do your best, and I'm sure u can do it. ^^
3 papers to go ya? After these 3 papers, laogong can enjoy provided that u have really fought hard for it. And when u get your results next year, I'm sure u'll will be satisfied. Laopo support u harx. hehez... U have me by your side ya? Laogong Jia You!!!
For 4 months, I'm jobless and stay at home everyday to help my mum look after my twinees. They have grown, and super naughty at times. But then, my house is super lovely and lively with them around. They know how to call us and everytime we asked them to call us, the twinees will say, "da jie wo ai ni". Sweet right? ^^
Slacking through for my life now, but will soon get a job probably next week. Looking forward to work and for laogong to finish his retake. I just love the way we are, and will stick thru thick and thin tgt. I love u laogong~ ^^
~7 months 28 days, & it's still counting...~ n.n
12:20 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 '
updates~
Well... back to my post again abt my trip to Hong Kong and Guang Zhou. Hehez...
13.10.09 [3rd day]
Headed to Guang Zhou via coach bus, and the jouney in the bus lasted 4 hours. The duration was like the flight I took from here to Hong Kong, super long~ Hahaz... By the time I reached Guang Zhou, it's already 5 plus. And my grand-uncle came to fetch us. We got to squeeze with the people that just finished work on the MRT, which they call MTR.
They went to my great-grand aunt's house which was opp our hotel. Cool lei, just a walk to the opp building and it's there. She's really old, 86 years of age. But still living quite healthy and cheerful too. They spoke in cantonese which me and my bro can't understand. Hahaz...Went eat dinner and that's day 3.
14.10.09 [4th day]
Went for a heritage tour to a building quite famous in GZ, called the陈家祠. It's a place like those old buildings where the ancestors built in the past, a so called their house. But it's really big, we spent our whole day there just going around to view the place. Bought lots of souvenirs there adn guess what? My dad supposed to pay over HK$1200 (~SG$240) for all those things we bought. In the end, he only paid around HK$450 (~SG$90), up to 70%-80% discount. OMG~ Coz our grand-aunt was the chief at that place in the past, but now she's retired.
Super cool~ Then I realised if the people there had a high position at their workplace, even if they retired, they still hold a certain authority and power there. Cool~ Hahaz... Happy to buy so many things in the end we just had to pay a little. XD But found out that there de people, esp teemagers aren't that good in manners. Even bad in manners than teenagers here.
15.10.09 [5th day]
Went back to HK via bus again coz our flight back to SG was at the HK airport. Reached the hotel was around 5 plus. Rest a while and had our last walk. Can imagine since day 1, we had been walking over 10 streets down from our hotel. And on the last day, we still walked more than 10 streets down to the 女人街 (sought of like bugis street, except there was outdoor). Last chance to buy all the things we wanted to buy. XD
16.10.09 [last day]
Weeee~ Finally after so many days overseas, it's time to go back to my home. Hahaz... Took a 4 hours flight back and I'm super happy that day. Coz my laogong came down with my mum they all to fetch me. And at that time, I got the chance to introduce him to my dad. Hehez... All along, didn't want my dad to know coz I'm scared he'll nag or sth. But then that day, they finally met each other. Plus my dad accept him too. Yeah! Delighted! *jump to the joy* ^^
It's really fun to visit HK and GZ, brought back fond memories plus a bit of unhappy thoughts. Overall, still must thanks my dad for footing all the expenses for me and my bro. Hees... Hope my grandma enjoys her trip too. Next time wan go other places with all my family members, perhaps taiwan next. Hahaz...
12:21 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009 '
i'm back!
Weeeeee~ I'm back! Was away to Hong Kong and Guang Zhou for the past 6 days, enjoyed myself lots and bought lots of things back too. 6 days passed quite fast, and here I am posting abt my trip to china. It's wonderful to visit my great-grand aunt there in Guang Zhou, and she's 86 years old! Hahaz... 2 days in HK at first, then wend to GZ for 2 days and then went back to HK again for 2 days. Quite tiring actually, but it's fun fun fun!
11.10.09 [1st day]
Woke up early to go to the airport as my flight was 10. A little she bu de my laogong and my mum and twinees, but then still ok. Was crying when I called my mum at the airport, coz she cry i also cry. 6 days to be separated from her, I'm going to miss her so much. On the plane, there was a period of time where the turbulence was really big. Keep on holding on tight to my piglet coz I'm quite scared actually. But every thing's fine.
Reached HK already 5 plus, reached the hotel 6 plus. rest awhile then went to eat and walk walk. 1st day was soon over coz most of the time was travelling.
12.10.09 [2nd day]
This was the day I had lots of fun, love the day especially. Know why? Coz we went to Disney land. Ho ho ho~ Morning ate breakfast then we took their MTR (at here is MRT) to Disney land. The journey wasn't that long, reached there around 11 plus. The train to Disney land was super cool, coz the windows and handles all that are mickey mouse shape. Hahaz... Bought tickets at around HK$1000 over for 4 of us.
Then our magical journey began where we played alot at Disney land. The part that I don't like was the demon house, like those ghost house where u had to walk in the dark. Stupid house, scared me really alot. Was crying on the way out coz I'm simply just scared of all these things. My dad hug me ask me no need scared. Awww~ So pai seh narh. XD
Then went eat and continued playing. Then sth unpleasant happened when we were buying souvenirs before going back. Don't really wish to rem as I really hate it alot. Haiz... It's really a shocking news for me, coz I respect her really alot, but then this thing happened which made my thinking change a little. She wasn't suppose to do that, yet she did, and she wouldn't do that, but she did it. Haiz... Was crying over it at night when I called my mum to tell her abt it. Awww~
But now every thing's ok, it just will keep on repeating in my mind again and again. Coz I can't persuade myself into believing that. Haiz... Let bygones be bygones.
Shall continue posting abt my trip tml. Coz I'm tired today le, sat for 4 hours flight and now I'm still using com when everyone in my house is asleep. Hahaz... XD Kkies~ Updates and photos be back soon~ Tata~ ^^
11:04 PM
Tuesday, October 6, 2009 '
7 months!!!
It's our 7th month on sunday, and I'm happy with what I have now in my life. 200% satisfied and glad that I have him with me by my side that dote on me so much. If it wasn't for him, I don't know how will I overcome those obstacles alone, how will I be strong when certain unhappy things came about. And I know we have indeed gone thru alot, be it whether is from your family or my family. We both have grown up in our this sweet little relationship ya? I believe we can sustain and prove to that tortoise. XD
Went bugis on sunday to go bai bai at the guanyin temple there. 2nd time went there with laogong, quite enjoyable though the hot sun was there. Hahaz... Then went bugis street walked walked around and headed back to cwp. He played max tune as usual, and the last time for playing coz his exam coiming soon. Laogong... Wait till your retake over then laopo return u your platinum card ya? Must be my good boy orh. ^^
This sunday going to Hong Kong and China [guang zhou]. Going to visit a distant relative who is my gandma's aunt, which means is my great-grand aunt. Hahaz... Only my grandma, my dad, my bro and me going on this sunday. 3 days hong kong, 2 days guang zhou. And I definitely know I'm going to miss my laogong badly. Hope I wouldn't cry that day coz it's my 1st time going to part with laogong for so many days. Whenever I think of it, tears will roll down a bit.
Shall buy gifts when I visited Hong kong coz it's shopping paradise. Ho ho ho~ Xp Half looking forward to it half don't wish it so fast come. Coz I can't bear with laogong, but laogong must wait for me to come back hor. Will buy gifts for u and laogong must be good here in singapore harx. ^^ Update the nxt time round, probably after I come back from my trip. ^^
~ hardwork will pay off for your retake. Jia you! ~
12:16 AM
Tuesday, September 29, 2009 '
jealousy~
~ Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness and disgust. ~
-taken from wikepedia
Hmmm... People often say maybe girls tend to get jealous easily, perhaps it's quite true for me. It's the emotion which no one can avoid or suppress it. And that's the emotion I hate most, coz that emotion doesn't stand alone, it combines with many other negative emotions. Jealousy may appear as a word alone, but it comes with anger, fear and alot anxiety. I guess jealousy can know how a person reacts and reveal the person's personality.
Long ago, I used to show off my temper whenever that jealousy met me. But now, my temper change, maybe due to all the unpleasant things that made me grown up. So when that jealousy meet me again, I choose to stay calm, then slowly question then finally that jealousy will go away. But I hate it whenever it comes, especially when it brought along that person. Don't know why but it's just a dislike in me.
So whenever JEALOUSY comes, don't scram or show off your temper immediately, coz that's the trap it set up in the 1st place. Cool down then question, then if u still not satisfied or it hasn't go away, then just scram to let off your anger. Coz if u suppress it further, it reach beyond your limit, and blast off should suit that moment. But must cool down after that, then think thru and then think of solutions to solve that jealousy. =)
~ " Yet he was jealous, though he did not show, for jealousy dislikes the world to know it " ~
-by Lord Byron
~ " The jealous are troublesome to others, but a torment to themselves " ~
-by Willian Penn
1:03 AM
