Friday, November 27, 2009 '
grown up!
Oh well~ It's been 2 weeks since I blog, so shall update about my life for these days. I found a job at tpy, working as an assistant teacher in a preschool, means nursery and kinder garden. Started working for a week or so, and I'm glad that i work there coz working with kids is really great. I was assigned to K1 B class and those kids are really fun. XD I enjoyed my this one week there, and will continue to work there coz I really enjoy the working environment.
People do say children create laughter, and will brighten up the atmosphere. And I agree with this, coz those kids are really such a joy. Sometimes u wouldn't expect what they will do and all that. Ytd was their concert where they got to dance one english song and one chinese song. Before their turn to perform, we were in the class waiting. They were so hyper, ran around, talk to each other.
I experienced a sense of warmth and lovely feeling ytd when I was in the class with the 19 kids waiting for their turn to perform. 1 of the little girls just came to me and sit on my lap naturally, just like very close to me. Soon, a few more kids crowd around me and wanted to talk to me. Though I was only there for 1 week, u can feel that those kids were somehow attached to u and become closer to u as the days go by. And the most happy thing is they remembered my name just 1 day after. ^^
Perhaps that's the motivation for me everyday to wake up early in the morning to go quite a far place to work. Though sometimes I feel sleepy, once I think of those lovely kids, I got the signal to get up of my bed and prepare to have a full lovely day ahead. I guess that was the only motivation for me everyday, and now then I know that my life can be such a wonderful thing as I never experienced it before.
Ever since I work, I don't have much time for u my dear. But then, try to bear with me ya? Try to understand me a little, coz sometimes, I also don't want it to be like that. And am i really a changed person? I also don't understand why, but then, I felt a little ache in my heart when i heard that. Just let it be I guess, time will heal.
~Perhaps I am a changed person... ~
8:58 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009 '
happy vs vexed
Today my parents and my 4 sis returned from their trip to HK. Was looking forward to it coz I really miss them lots. Went down to the airport with laogong and my grandma to fetch them. Saw them coming out from the arrival hall, was really happy to see them expecially twinees. Miss the days when they weren't around with me. Hug them when I saw them, but to them, I'm like a stranger, like they don't recognise me somehow.
Saw my dad, but his face was so black, wonder what happen to him. Then took taxi home, my sis told me all the things that happen. Either my dad got some dispute with my mum, or my dad got disputes with my sis all that. Felt a little giddy in the taxi, but then still ok.
Reached home and I felt that home is still the best. But here comes the unhappy part. Don't know why they went HK for 4 days, all came back like alot of days didn't shout or angry. Then keep on shouting and make noise all that, made me feeling super giddy and vexed. My sis bought for me a pink wallet, was really happy about it. And i asked my mum to buy the white colour monkey T-shirt for laogong, they did, was feeling happy at 1st.
But then, asked my sis help clear up the mess the twinees created, she said she busy. So i helped to clean up. Then she asked me to exchange the wallet with her. Coz her friend wanted the pink one, asked me to have the blue one. I'm already vexed, then I told her I don't want it. She said she at first already planned to give me either purple or blue. Then? Still asked me to choose myself the colour I want? =( Forget it ba~
Then my dad said I lied to him last time, said last time we went HK disneyland, I bought a cap for my sis. Actually I bought the cap is for myself, yet he said I lied to him say I bought for my sis. Haiz... Then said about the T-shirt all that. VEXED!!!
Know they're tired after their trip, but can don't say things that made me cried? Tears were rolling down, just felt that though they're at home, I felt so empty and lonely. Wanted to talk lots of things to them, but they seem so busy. =( Though they're at home, I don't know why I can't sense their presence except for their noise and voice. Haiz...
Today wasn't a very good day, don't know why everything don't seem to fix up properly, like missing puzzles here and there. Just hope for a better tml I guess.
~Loneliness in me is still there, wonder when will it go off? ~
11:25 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009 '
empty house~
My house is going to be really empty in just another 5 more days. My whole family except me and my bro will be going to hong kong this coming sat. My dad just won a lucky draw with a free airticket to hong kong. That's why he's bringing my mum, the 3 little ones and my sis to go there again. Since me and my bro just went not long ago, we will be staying here in singapore.
The feeling of loneliness is inside me, coz I know my house will be really quiet during this weekend up till nxt tues. My grandma will be coming to take care o me and my bro. And the whole house will not be as noisy and lively as now. I know I've grown up, but then never in my life have I experienced my house being so quiet. If my uncle doesn't stay with us, and ifmy grandma doesn't come and take care of us, I'll every every moment for that 4 days. Coz my house is really empty.
Oh well~ I just hope they'll have a safe journey to hong kong and come back safely too. I'll miss them pretty alot I guess. And as for sure, if i send them off, u can see my crying and crying non stop even if I reach home. Coz I can't bear to be separated from my parents and my twinees, and of coz bao yi and pei kuan. Awww~ I'm so gonna miss them. ='( While they are busy packing, I'm feeling a little sorrow.
~Nothing could describe my feelings now. A sense of little fear and the feelings of loneliness deep inside me~
9:12 PM
Tuesday, November 3, 2009 '
sudden mixed feelings
Experienced a sudden feeling of sorrow... Don't know what's got into me, perhaps coz of the little dispute with my mum. And she ignored me from 8 plus till now, perhaps I should let it be like that. My dad and my mum maybe going to HK soon. Coz my dad won an air ticket to HK and he's planning to bring my mum and my 4 sis go. SInce I had go there before which was not long ago, I'm not included in the trip.
Oh well~ If they really go, left me and my bro at home. My mum is planning to ask my grandma come to my house to watch over the 2 of us. Coz she scared my bro wouldn't want to come home for that 3 nights. But if 6 of them really go, I bet I'm going to cry for that 4 days 3 nights. See how it goes~
Tml going for an interview for assistance teacher. Hope everything's fine for me, and I want that job too. Wish me good luck ya? ^^
10:22 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009 '
jia you~
Tml shall be the day, or in fact it's today, 14 more hours to go. I know it's really tough for him to study for his retake, but then I believe he can do it ya? U have my support my dear, and I'll cheer for u. Just believe that u can do it ya? It doesn't really matter how much u know, what matter is that u have work hard for it, and study hard for it too. Tml just do your best, and I'm sure u can do it. ^^
3 papers to go ya? After these 3 papers, laogong can enjoy provided that u have really fought hard for it. And when u get your results next year, I'm sure u'll will be satisfied. Laopo support u harx. hehez... U have me by your side ya? Laogong Jia You!!!
For 4 months, I'm jobless and stay at home everyday to help my mum look after my twinees. They have grown, and super naughty at times. But then, my house is super lovely and lively with them around. They know how to call us and everytime we asked them to call us, the twinees will say, "da jie wo ai ni". Sweet right? ^^
Slacking through for my life now, but will soon get a job probably next week. Looking forward to work and for laogong to finish his retake. I just love the way we are, and will stick thru thick and thin tgt. I love u laogong~ ^^
~7 months 28 days, & it's still counting...~ n.n
12:20 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 '
updates~
Well... back to my post again abt my trip to Hong Kong and Guang Zhou. Hehez...
13.10.09 [3rd day]
Headed to Guang Zhou via coach bus, and the jouney in the bus lasted 4 hours. The duration was like the flight I took from here to Hong Kong, super long~ Hahaz... By the time I reached Guang Zhou, it's already 5 plus. And my grand-uncle came to fetch us. We got to squeeze with the people that just finished work on the MRT, which they call MTR.
They went to my great-grand aunt's house which was opp our hotel. Cool lei, just a walk to the opp building and it's there. She's really old, 86 years of age. But still living quite healthy and cheerful too. They spoke in cantonese which me and my bro can't understand. Hahaz...Went eat dinner and that's day 3.
14.10.09 [4th day]
Went for a heritage tour to a building quite famous in GZ, called the陈家祠. It's a place like those old buildings where the ancestors built in the past, a so called their house. But it's really big, we spent our whole day there just going around to view the place. Bought lots of souvenirs there adn guess what? My dad supposed to pay over HK$1200 (~SG$240) for all those things we bought. In the end, he only paid around HK$450 (~SG$90), up to 70%-80% discount. OMG~ Coz our grand-aunt was the chief at that place in the past, but now she's retired.
Super cool~ Then I realised if the people there had a high position at their workplace, even if they retired, they still hold a certain authority and power there. Cool~ Hahaz... Happy to buy so many things in the end we just had to pay a little. XD But found out that there de people, esp teemagers aren't that good in manners. Even bad in manners than teenagers here.
15.10.09 [5th day]
Went back to HK via bus again coz our flight back to SG was at the HK airport. Reached the hotel was around 5 plus. Rest a while and had our last walk. Can imagine since day 1, we had been walking over 10 streets down from our hotel. And on the last day, we still walked more than 10 streets down to the 女人街 (sought of like bugis street, except there was outdoor). Last chance to buy all the things we wanted to buy. XD
16.10.09 [last day]
Weeee~ Finally after so many days overseas, it's time to go back to my home. Hahaz... Took a 4 hours flight back and I'm super happy that day. Coz my laogong came down with my mum they all to fetch me. And at that time, I got the chance to introduce him to my dad. Hehez... All along, didn't want my dad to know coz I'm scared he'll nag or sth. But then that day, they finally met each other. Plus my dad accept him too. Yeah! Delighted! *jump to the joy* ^^
It's really fun to visit HK and GZ, brought back fond memories plus a bit of unhappy thoughts. Overall, still must thanks my dad for footing all the expenses for me and my bro. Hees... Hope my grandma enjoys her trip too. Next time wan go other places with all my family members, perhaps taiwan next. Hahaz...
12:21 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009 '
i'm back!
Weeeeee~ I'm back! Was away to Hong Kong and Guang Zhou for the past 6 days, enjoyed myself lots and bought lots of things back too. 6 days passed quite fast, and here I am posting abt my trip to china. It's wonderful to visit my great-grand aunt there in Guang Zhou, and she's 86 years old! Hahaz... 2 days in HK at first, then wend to GZ for 2 days and then went back to HK again for 2 days. Quite tiring actually, but it's fun fun fun!
11.10.09 [1st day]
Woke up early to go to the airport as my flight was 10. A little she bu de my laogong and my mum and twinees, but then still ok. Was crying when I called my mum at the airport, coz she cry i also cry. 6 days to be separated from her, I'm going to miss her so much. On the plane, there was a period of time where the turbulence was really big. Keep on holding on tight to my piglet coz I'm quite scared actually. But every thing's fine.
Reached HK already 5 plus, reached the hotel 6 plus. rest awhile then went to eat and walk walk. 1st day was soon over coz most of the time was travelling.
12.10.09 [2nd day]
This was the day I had lots of fun, love the day especially. Know why? Coz we went to Disney land. Ho ho ho~ Morning ate breakfast then we took their MTR (at here is MRT) to Disney land. The journey wasn't that long, reached there around 11 plus. The train to Disney land was super cool, coz the windows and handles all that are mickey mouse shape. Hahaz... Bought tickets at around HK$1000 over for 4 of us.
Then our magical journey began where we played alot at Disney land. The part that I don't like was the demon house, like those ghost house where u had to walk in the dark. Stupid house, scared me really alot. Was crying on the way out coz I'm simply just scared of all these things. My dad hug me ask me no need scared. Awww~ So pai seh narh. XD
Then went eat and continued playing. Then sth unpleasant happened when we were buying souvenirs before going back. Don't really wish to rem as I really hate it alot. Haiz... It's really a shocking news for me, coz I respect her really alot, but then this thing happened which made my thinking change a little. She wasn't suppose to do that, yet she did, and she wouldn't do that, but she did it. Haiz... Was crying over it at night when I called my mum to tell her abt it. Awww~
But now every thing's ok, it just will keep on repeating in my mind again and again. Coz I can't persuade myself into believing that. Haiz... Let bygones be bygones.
Shall continue posting abt my trip tml. Coz I'm tired today le, sat for 4 hours flight and now I'm still using com when everyone in my house is asleep. Hahaz... XD Kkies~ Updates and photos be back soon~ Tata~ ^^
11:04 PM
