Sunday, June 14, 2009 '

failed

I failed... Haiz... In my world now, it seems dark, totally in completely darkness. I don't know what to do now, don't know what should I do next. I disappoint my parents, my dad the most. I don't know what's my next step at all, I'm stuck and my feet don't know where should I go. Retake never came across in my mind. Now my mind is in a whirl, yet I know I have to decide on sth. Anyone can help me? Advise on what steps should I take next? I need someone to advice where should I go?

This thing haven't settle fully yet another issue came just so suddenly. I never allow myself to go into this stage at all, but now I'm forced to do the things I don't want it to happen. Ever wonder what's the maximum capacity a person can bear with everything that happen? And wonder when will a person blast off without any warning at all? Now even a soft-hearted person can do that as long as he/she has reached the max of the max.

I'm waiting for it to come, and I shall not allow myself to get hurt at all. And I would protect my friend too, coz I treat her as one. ^^ The one that share the status I am now, the one that willing to attack with me, she know who she are. =)

I'm just tired of all these things, not my fault yet I'm the one that need to carry it. This is the 2nd time it happen to me. I haven attack yet, I haven even move, I haven even say anything at all. Yet I need to carry these burden with me. Kkies... I shall carry it with me, and till the day it come, pardon me for my sudden change of personality, coz this will be the only time I'll do that. I wun allow the next time to come, and I promise this will be the last and final one.

*It's going to end soon...*

*I love my laogong the most! And I know he'll be by my side always* n.n

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
11:16 PM