Tuesday, June 9, 2009 '

tired

Ytd was the start of the fresh week I should have. Yet the start of the week made me very tired, make me don't wish to welcome the other days. It's not smooth for me at all, it isn't is. Why must it happen that way? I've been working for around 6 months, and the most unhappiness things happened when I'm about to quit. At first want to quit end of june, ytd made me have the determination to quit nxt week. I really cannot take it anymore, my work made me and my laogong quarrel so many times. I hate it, really hate it.

Why are there so many scary ppl around? It really scared me alot, it made me so tired of working. I'm tired to handle such things, I really am. Staff like that, customers also like that. I cried 5 times in total ytd. First was when I'm working, then on the bus way home, next was when I'm walking home from the bus stop. I sat down on the bench at my block downstairs. I don't wish to listen to calls and sms, I just want to have peace. I cried out, really cried out.

Last 2 times were when I'm chatting with my laogong. Laogong~ I'm really sorry I didn't think of u, I'm sorry I didn't put myself in your shoes. Dui bu qi...

Tired is the word to describe me for now, not physically tired, but mentally tired. I hate working there, really tires me alot. Made me don't wish to carry on walking. I can't tolerate anymore, will quit earlier, probably nxt week. And on my last day of work, I'll blast all out. Don't blame me for doing this, coz I'm really tired!

Laogong~ Will quit de, give me some more time ya? I'm really sorry to let u cry. Dui bu qi...

Maybe to u all, I'm 18, should learn how to grow up and think maturely. But deep inside my heart, I'm just a small little girl. I just want to be normal, just want to lead a happy life. Isn't that simple? Why can't it be done? I'm really tired...

During work... If I keep quiet, don't ask me why, coz I don't wish to talk. If I don't look at u, don't look at me, coz I'm crying. If I didn't say anything, just let me be. I'm tired!

piss off, tired, upset, disappointed, stress-up

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
12:04 PM