Sunday, July 26, 2009 '

*misses*

Sunday wasn't that good afterall, coz it's a super boring day at home. Can't go out meet my baobei laogong, and he's boring too at home. Chat with him on msn just now and we played games tgt too. Though can't meet him, I still can msn and sms him too orh. He like a small kids to me like that, wait for me to dote on him, wait for me to pamper him too. Hehez... I don't have complains at all, coz I simply love the times when we are tgt.

It's super sweet to have someone to dote on u and for u to dote on. And I bet in this one lifetime, u really hope to find someone like that ya? And no matter how the other look like, or no matter what he do, u'll always put him on the no.1 place in your heart. And I'm glad I fount that no.1 in my heart too. That's when the time u will grow up and the time u don't wish to grow up.

Grow up coz u tend to understand the other one more and more as the days go by, u tend to be a little mature and understanding too. That's how it will be maintain and how it can last. Don't wish to grow up coz u'll always like to be protected by the other one, like the other one to dote on u and pamper u too. And of coz u'll always like to be in the other one's hug, a little warm hug from him will make my heart melts. That's how we show our love towards each other, plus a small little kiss on the forehead makes one feel so bliss to have him by your side.

And indeed I fount that other one, that other one that fulfils all the things I've listed above. Isn't it sweet and nice? =) Since I've found my that 'other one', I'll also do my part for his 'other one' too. And this is how we shall remain and stay as it is. Sweet little us~ ^^

*爱你, 不是因为你是个怎样的人,而是喜欢和你在一起的感觉。
即使在不同的地方，也有着相同的感觉. * n.n

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
6:06 PM

Saturday, July 25, 2009 '

sick~

Weeee~ Today was a lovely day with my baobei laogong. Acc him to go city hall there buy his slippers, coz his slippers broken le, then need replace a new one. Hehez... He's waiting for this day to come, coz he only got that one pair, then need buy a new one. ^^

Went city hall, then after that went AMK coz he wanted to see his friends play max tune match. In the end the match ended before we went there, so we head back to cwp. Saw richard was still there though it's already 5 plus. Thought he suppose to go NP about 2 plus? Hahaz... Anw~ As usual, he play his max tune. Then I just wander around play those free games and ticket games. Happy for baobei laogong coz he got won some rounds worx. Cheers~

Was quite sick today, having flu and sore throat, and I didn't get H1N1 hor. XD Don't know why H1N1 is still out there in the society, and it starts to kill innocent ppl. Shall pray hard that it will go away soon so that we can lead our normal life, no need to fear this and that. Shoo shoo~

Perhaps that's what the 'retribution' we should get for destroying our home that is call the Earth? And realise the weather nowadays is super hot? El Nino coming on the way... Awww~ Perhaps we should really reflect on our daily life, or for the things mankind have done which cause such 'consequences' that we are having now. Everyone plays a part too.

Well~ Shall update more the next time. Hehez... My mind is going a bit blur coz I just ate my medicine. Take great care ya? And drink lots and lots of water coz the weather is sizzling hot. XD

*I don't mind doing anything just to make u happy. Love u lots baobei laogong<333*

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
11:42 PM

Friday, July 24, 2009 '

有个瞎子女孩和男孩在一起，
他们在一起时都很快乐，
男孩并不介意女孩是个瞎子。

就有那么一天，
瞎子女孩跟男孩说:"
如果我能看得到你，
我才愿意嫁给你。"

不久之后，
有为好心人愿意捐眼角膜给瞎子女孩。
终于让瞎子女孩等到了这么一天。

当手术结束之后，
女孩到处去找男孩。
她坐在一旁，等着男孩的出现。
男孩不久后便出现在女孩的面前。

原来女孩发现男孩也是个瞎子。
她对男孩说:"
原来你和我以前一样都是个瞎子。
对不起，我不想和你结婚。"

男孩并不介意，他微笑着对女孩说:"
没关系~ 不过你要答应我，
要好好照顾我的眼睛哦。"

Isn't it touching? From the boy side of view, as long as the other one is happy, he's willing to do anything. Sometimes for the loved ones, a person is willing to do anything just to let the other one happy. That's the wonderful thing about love, that's the nice thing about love. Isn't it beautiful? ^^

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
2:14 PM

Monday, July 20, 2009 '

understanding

Nowadays alot of things happened, be it happy or unhappy things. It's been 2 weeks plus since I left my workplace, and everyday I'm at home with my mum and my twinees! Gosh narh, everyday at home with my mum taking care of the 2 little monsters. My life now turns me into an aunty, whereby everday have to take care of the little monsters. Hahaz... And sometimes I follow my mum go eat, and sooner or later, I'll put on weight. XD

Last fri went ecp cycling with my 3 best friends, and we had so much fun. Hahaz... Then I realise I can ride those double bike where I'm in front controlling the steering. And the bike is like higher than my hips, and when I got on to the bike, my feet can't touch the ground. Hahaz... But it's cool and fun to cycle. =)

And last fri something unhappy happened, which made us quarrel till quite fierce, and just that a little bit more everything will break. But then, ever since after that day, we know our wrongs. And we learn to understand each other a little more, so that we can change for the better. I get to know him more and he get to know me more too. And I guess the 2 words will never ever come out again, coz I don't want to leave him.

Baobei laogong~ After that day, I choose to stay with u tgt, thru thick and thin, and to stay on with u till our very last day. No matter what, I wouldn't want to leave you, and will never ever give up on u. That's my very promise to u, and I'll hold on to it till the day I can't hold it anymore. I believe that we'll have a sweet future ahead, coz I know no matter what happens, u will be the one there for me definitely. We shall work hard for our sweet future ya?

Sometimes a little quarrel do let ppl know more of the other one, but then too big a quarrel may cause a sudden change in life. I'm glad that it didn't happen to me, and I know it wouldn't happen the next time round. No more next time! ^^ Just to say 包容是一种美丽的爱~

*Baobei laogong... Never will I leave u alone and never will I give up on u. I simply love u lots! No worries ya? Coz I'll be with u no matter what happens. n.n *

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
10:30 PM

Thursday, July 9, 2009 '

memories

It's 1 week since I left tz, and time flies so fast. I'm living strong now, and I finally found my saviour who advice me on what steps should I take next. Awww~ Thanks charlotte jie jie! I'll move on with my life, and I know I have my family and my baobei laogong to support me. <3

Was tidying my cupboard this afternoon and alot of things brought me alot of memories. Perhaps there are good memories to reminisce with, or maybe some are just bad memories which I don't wish to recall. I browse through those neoprints that I took with my friends when I was in sec sch. And then, fond memories just flashed back at me. But then, some of those were just my regrets.

Regrets for losing such 'friends', perhaps the blame should be put on me. Maybe that's what I had to encounter and all those are just fate. It's fate for being so close with such once I call them "friends", and then it's also fate for our so called "friendship" to break. Haiz... It happened twice in my life, twice in my 18 years of life. People who knew what happened for these 2 incidents, perhaps that's my retribution ya? For being such a bad person, and for being not a good 'friend' to them at all, I'll just have to keep quiet for people to say me ba.

I'm moving on with my life now, and will keep on moving without turning my head behind to regret for my past. I'm sorry to all those that are hurt, I repent for what I had done. But then, that doesn't mean I will lay my head low, coz I'll face my life strongly. Shall give those 'friends' my blessings, and time will heal everything. ^^

~Memories~

~I know I have to be strong, and I know I have to carry on with my life happily~ ^^
*就是爱我的宝贝老公* <3

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
11:13 PM

Monday, July 6, 2009 '

totally lost

I'm totally lost now, don't know what steps should I take, don't know what should I do next. In my life now, there's a big obstacle in front of me which I don't know what should I do. Turn my head around and walk back, or remain in front of this obstacle and choose to give up? Or should I detour this big obstacle? Or perhaps I should really face it, pick up my courage and try to climb over it?

I chatted with jing wen, she adviced me on many things, my parents adviced me too. But then, frankly speaking, I'm scared, scared to face it. I admit I don't have the courage, don't have the element to pluck up my courage and face it. Coz no matter what, I did try my best, did put in the effort, perhaps it's not enough, not enough to have a smooth path ahead for me. That's why there's a big stone in front of me now, and I know I'll have to face it anyway.

I'm seriously tired, tired of everything. Live for 18 years, and I can say my 18th year is the toughest one, and the one that I need alot of energy and mood to live with it. Live for so long, no one ever treat me like that, this year is the first one. Guess it's my fate, guess it's the life that I should have for me. I seriously need someone to advice me, and I need someone to tell me what should I do.

I'm living in a totally lost world, yet no one can help me. Guess I have to depend on my own, to make my decision and live it with no regrets. And I know my family will support me no matter what. But then, I disappoint my parents the most, that's the only regret I have now. So I'll make my decision, so that I can account it to them.

~I'm tired to make decision, coz I don't know how. I'm tired to walk, coz I don't know where to go. I'm tired to hang on, coz I don't know can I survive. I'm tired to cry and I'm tired to shed tears, coz I know it wouldn't change anything.~

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
11:06 PM