Saturday, January 30, 2010 '

Updates!

It's been so long since I updated, perhaps I'm a little lazy to update my blog. Everything's well for me nowadays, and I enjoyed working with kids! Hahaz... They will really make my day and I will always remember those actions that make me laugh. Kids are just that innocent and naughty at times. Some more they are just the age as my twinees. But I will never forget how I clean them up when they did their "big business". Sometimes I had to clean for up to 4 times a day, and some kids did twice. Omg~ And baobei said it's a good training for me for the future. Then I told him next time he'll help to clean for our kids coz I don't want. Xp

Went bugis with him today. At first wanted to walk walk around to see clothes, but it's so squeezy coz there're lots of people there. So went to the 'Guan Yin' temple to pray then ate KFC. Went bugis junction for window shopping coz we usually don't buy things when we shop. =) Walked till 5 plus then we headed back to cwp. Was very tired and I fell asleep on the mrt. Luckily laogong was beside me so that i can lie my head on his shoulder. Sweet ya? That's what I always do when we are on the mrt for a long journey.

Enjoyed myself today coz it's with him. =) Went cwp and as usual, he played few rounds of MT. Went home after that and now I'm updating my blog. Nowadays I feel so tired easily, maybe coz need to wake up early during the weekdays. But everytime after i wake up, I will have the motivation to continue on for the day. Maybe it's coz of the kids that make my day worth while. But sometimes they will cry and it's quite 'noisy' to hear them crying. But after the whole day, a hug and a kiss from them will make me feel that kids are really cute and fun. ^^

Btw~ My application for relief teacher is approved. And it starts in march. So I will work in my preschool till end of feb and will work as relief teacher. Time flies so fast... CNY is coming, looking forward to it. But it clashes wih Valentine's day, so can't celebrate with laogong. =( Will miss him lots.

~ I just love the way we are, sweet sweet love ~

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
9:49 PM

Thursday, January 14, 2010 '

dear diary...

Did u experience sth that go missing suddenly? It was there for like months, and now then it went missing. Haiz... Searched for it high and low, almost going to turn my house upside down. But still can't find it despite my massive hunting for it. It's precious to me, really very impt to me. Coz it noted down my every moments with laogong, it contains my happiness and sadness with him. Now it's gone suddenly, and I'm desperate for that to 'pop' out itself.

I remembered I didn't misplace it, or put it somewhere. It was there, beside my bed and I put it there all along. How I wish I have supernatural eyes to scan every corners so that I can know where it really is. If I still can't find it, even if I need to flip my house inside out, I will do it! Search for every place in my house, cupboards and everywhere. I'm sure I'm going to find it, and be prepared to see me going bonkers. I will do it!!!

~Could u please come back? U're really impt to me... I'll do anything for u to appear... ~ ='(

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
12:00 AM

Thursday, January 7, 2010 '

If I have the ability...

Beginning of the year, yet nothing seems to be going on that well. Busy with work lately and the kids are draining my energy. Have been at the nursery 1 class and everyday when I go for my work, they sure will cry coz they're not used to the new environment. And when they cry, it's those non-stop crying. One kid cry still ok, but when up till 5 kids are crying tgt, imagine the loud noise we teachers have to endure. The nursery 1A class has the most teachers, 5 teachers in a class for 12 kids. Plus we have to carry them when they cried coz they're only 3! That's just like the same age as my twinees. Everyday we'll get to hear the 'music' that these little kids created from their cries.

Whenever I saw them cry, I was wondering why parents nowadays want to put their kids in preschool at such a young age? Perhaps they're busy working and no time to look after them. But at the thought of seeing them cry and wanting to look for their parents, I feel so heartache for them. In school, when they see those unfamiliar faces, everyone seems like strangers to them. The fear inside them aren't that easy to eliminate, plus they can't express what they want to convey in words. They can only cry to seek for their comfort. If I have the ability, how I wish I can know what they wanted to convey, how I wish I can help these 'babies' to find their comfort apart from seeking comfort from their parents.

When I got home today, I receive an unpleasant news from my mum. She went KK hospital for check up that time. She told me today the nurse called and told her an unpleasant news. After hearing it, she cried for the whole morning. The nurse asked her to take her report on nxt mon. Though the nurse only said my mum maybe got a lump, she didn't really confirm anything. Only that she asked my mum to take her report and the doc will tell her in details.

If I have the ability, how I wish I can take away all her illness, how I wish I can protect her from any harm. If I have the ability and power, how I wish when she gets the report, it is just a minor case. How i wish she wouldn't suffer from any illness and diseases, and she will live in longevity. But... I don't have the power and ability, I can only pray hard for her, pray hard for her that all these wouldn't affect her much. How I wish I can remove her burden and share it with her. How I wish I really can...

~这世界就这么不公平吗？难道说就不能快快乐乐的过日子吗？~

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
9:09 PM

Saturday, January 2, 2010 '

2010

Start of a brand new year, yet it started like that. I don't wish for everything to be like that, and seriously, I dislike it. Rahh... Perhaps i shouldn't control, or perhaps I shouldn't say anything at all. Suppose to be a happy day, yet it turn out like tat? Sometime I'm wondering should I be a mute? Coz I don't need to say anything at all...

Faults faults faults... I don't understand why the word is called 'faults'. And I hate this word... I'm such a lousy person, such a girl that is not that caring, and keep making him push the faults to himself. =( Is it everything must be like that? The word 'tired', physically or mentally? Tired... It's easy to say, yet nth much can do to ameliorate the feeling. I'm feeling that all the time, I tried to change, but guess it's not improving...

Can anyone tell me what must I do? What should I do to change it? I don't wish to be tired... Perhaps I don't really understand... Haiz... =(

~ 如果说我是雨滴，我想掉落在大海里。这样就没人会知道我的踪影，也没人知道我的存在... ~

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
12:46 AM