Tuesday, March 30, 2010 '
* misses *
These few days weren't that easy to lead on. Just felt that without him, life's really not that happy and bright. Last thurs went to airport to send laogong off to Korea. And he'll be away for 11 days till next mon. Haiz.. Was happy at first when we reached the airport. But when it was about time to bid goodbye, I can't hold it anymore and I cried... I knew I promised I wouldn't cry, but really can't hold it. After that went burger king with his mum and sis to da bao food. Saw laogong going in le, and silly laogong cried too. Cried even more sad than me... That's the 1st time he went overseas alone with the school, and for such a long time. Haiz...
Today was the 5th day he's away, and my misses for him really cannot be described. 6 more days for him to come back, really miss him alot. At night, when I was about to sleep, will think whether my silly laogong got eat well and sleep well anot, got enjoy and take great care of himself anot. Sometimes when I think of it, tears just roll down. Can't control my misses for him, how I wish now time can flash faster, how I wish he can come back faster...
Hope he's good there, enjoy the tours and shopping. But as for me, it isn't that good. Now then I know missing someone is worst than torture, mind is full of him can make me go crazy. But what can I do? Can only wait for him to come back, and I wish the countdown can be a bit faster. Hope tml will be better, hope tml morning there'll be a call asking me to go for relief, then I wouldn't think so much. Hope to find sth to do then time can flash faster.
Laogong must take great care, rem to drink lots of water. Sha laopo waiting for u to come back...
~ Counting down 6 more days for u to come back... How I wish time can past faster ~
6:20 PM
Saturday, March 13, 2010 '
Those were just memories...
Have been staying at home for 2 weeks ever since I resigned from my work in preschool. Everyday is just the same old thing happening again and again. Look after my twinees, eat, drink and sleep. Where's my motivation in life? Where's my goal? Suddenly, I seems to realise that my life is just going on a monotone basis. No ups and downs, no exciting features. Hmmm... Something is lacking in my life.
Reminiscing the days in my school life, perhaps my life in sec was much more better. At least I knew that I had some motivation there, and at least I knew what I'm doing. Msl chinese orchestra was that motivation for me. Every mon and wed, no matter how tired I am, I would endure and go for those practices. Coz I knew that my passion was there, and I had my 3 er hu mates with me. 4 of us would go for those practices tgt and we definitely would have fun and laughter. After practices, working home tgt is just like a norm for us. Rehearsals, concerts and camps were those things that we had fond memories of, and those would etched in my mind.
My life in sec sch was much more fun, and the days were easy to lead too. Twice per week for the mslco practices were able to let me have fun with my 3 strings mates. Those days were just what I enjoyed and loved. Though there were struggles for me in my last year in sec sch, at least there were some memories for me to reminisce. Unhappy memories should be let go ya? I hope that's for the others too. =)
I should really go search for my motivations and goals in my life. Just like the way I had in mslco, just like the days I had with my 3 awesome er hu mates. Coz my life now is simply not too exciting but at the same time a little bored. But can I really find it? Will those motivations and goals appear again in my life? I hope so... Oh well~ Looking forward to the acceptance. ^^
~ Are incidents for people to forget or to remember? ~
9:48 PM
