Those were just memories...
Have been staying at home for 2 weeks ever since I resigned from my work in preschool. Everyday is just the same old thing happening again and again. Look after my twinees, eat, drink and sleep. Where's my motivation in life? Where's my goal? Suddenly, I seems to realise that my life is just going on a monotone basis. No ups and downs, no exciting features. Hmmm... Something is lacking in my life.
Reminiscing the days in my school life, perhaps my life in sec was much more better. At least I knew that I had some motivation there, and at least I knew what I'm doing. Msl chinese orchestra was that motivation for me. Every mon and wed, no matter how tired I am, I would endure and go for those practices. Coz I knew that my passion was there, and I had my 3 er hu mates with me. 4 of us would go for those practices tgt and we definitely would have fun and laughter. After practices, working home tgt is just like a norm for us. Rehearsals, concerts and camps were those things that we had fond memories of, and those would etched in my mind.
My life in sec sch was much more fun, and the days were easy to lead too. Twice per week for the mslco practices were able to let me have fun with my 3 strings mates. Those days were just what I enjoyed and loved. Though there were struggles for me in my last year in sec sch, at least there were some memories for me to reminisce. Unhappy memories should be let go ya? I hope that's for the others too. =)
I should really go search for my motivations and goals in my life. Just like the way I had in mslco, just like the days I had with my 3 awesome er hu mates. Coz my life now is simply not too exciting but at the same time a little bored. But can I really find it? Will those motivations and goals appear again in my life? I hope so... Oh well~ Looking forward to the acceptance. ^^
~ Are incidents for people to forget or to remember? ~
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