Saturday, April 3, 2010 '

Xin hao tong...

Had a little dispute and quarrel with him. Book hao le de chalet, in the end u can't go. I spent efforts, time and money orh, yet u can't go. Know me and my sis, from woodlands all the way to pasir ris, went to just book a chalet to celebrate your birthday? So should I cancel? Ytd quarrel, coz u got orientation, then can't make it. When I heard it, was a little angry and upset at first, then said those unhappy words.

Today, little dispute also. Made till our day not good at all. Thought of so many words to tell u in msn, type hao le, type and cry tgt. But u can't see it at all. I know u angry with what I said, but got think that laogong hurt me also ma? Xin hao tong orh. Know u kena friends treat u like that, yet I can't do anything. Can't give u a hug to let u feel better, can't do anything to let u feel better.

Laogong said u suffer there, but I heard from your voice, got enjoy ba. Got enjoy jiu hao, at least u didn't feel sad even though we quarrel. But for me, I cried for many nights. That night, coz miss u too much, plus your friends prob, made me cried and worried for u. Ytd and tonight, which is now, cried coz I know u enjoyed, but don't know why I don feel good at all. Perhaps coz I'm suffering ba, suffering from my misses for u, suffering from ytd's quarrel and today. Guess u don't feel that hurt hor?

But u know what? My heart so painful, tears keep rolling down from my eyes. I don't want your "it's ok" or your "nvm", I want your console. Muacks so many times can't heal my wound, coz it's so painful. Why everytime we quarrel, I suffered so much? And keep on crying yet u don't know. I'm such a lousy girl, perhaps not that good as your girl. But deep inside my heart, I'm truly hurt... Sleep le, wake up, it's still hurt. Laogong... U know that ma?

*If it's wrong to love u, then my heart just wouldn't let me be right*
12:00 AM